TTC Week one - strange feelings

So today is friday i woke up this morning with stomach cramps but didn't really think to much of it as i was thinking i was ovulating as i had a positive ovulation test yesterday so i took another this morning which was again positive so i just put down to that and then again through out the day I've felt little twinges on and off but again just thinking it was me ovulating. Ive also felt really motivated today and got lots of thing done around the house and just felt genuinely happy and contented with my self, But suddenly this evening after i ate my dinner which i had a real appetite for i suddenly felt quite nauseas and more intense stomach cramps, suddenly i started to feel really emotional so seeing as since I've started this process I've been stuck to baby centre and various other pregnancy sites i decide to just see if these were early signs of pregnancy and if it was possible to be getting symptoms this soon and every thing i looked at said it was absolute possible and the symptoms i was having were ones you could get this early on, other people were saying how they knew the day after conceiving and that you know your body and can just tell when something is happening. After reading all this i am almost certain it is not just ovulation i can never recall feeling like this when ovulating before but at the same time I'm thinking is it just because I'm more aware of it this time? I then decide to look up if you were pregnant would the ovulation test still read positive and apparently it can as the LH hormone the ovulation test picks up is the same as the HCG hormone you have when pregnant so it would read positive, So i decided to go and try another ovulation test which by this time it was 7.30 in the evening and again it read positive. I am now really convince that i am pregnant which is not good because i will be even more disappointed if I'm wrong but i just can't shake the feeling that i am when i was pregnant with my son i just knew i was, I don't know why as i hadn't had any symptoms but i just knew and this time with not only with the symptoms I've had i feel like i just know.

Friday mornings ovulation test

Friday evenings ovulation

TTC week one - Feeling impatient

This week has been so hard I am not the most patient person in the world and considering its the first week TTC i'm dreading what I'm going to be like if it takes me months to conceive. In my mind because i already have a child I'm 100% sure i can get pregnant but I'm worrying that it will take me a long time. I'm not looking forward to my 2 week wait as i know i will have done everything i could to conceive and i will just want to know straight away if it has worked so the temptation of taking the test will be so hard but i need to stop thinking about it and think it will happen in time and stop trying to rush it.

So on Friday i finished my period and since saturday i have been actively trying every day which again I'm worrying is not the best thing to do as i have read try every other day but i can't shake the feeling of what if the every other day i don't try one of those days is the day that it could have happened.

On Wednesday i felt ill a little bit nauseas and just genuinely tired i was really hoping these signs were that i was pregnant even though i knew that i wasn't as my Ovia app said i wasn't ovulating till Thursday but for some reason i was thinking maybe its wrong as my last period lasted two weeks so maybe its all out of routine. I made James go to tesco to get me some ovulating tests to test if the Ovia app was correct so i had peace of mind knowing when i was actually ovulating.

Wednesday night results

As there was a lighter line on the wednesday night test it then advised you to take the test daily so first thing today i took the test and the second line was much darker and nearly the same as the test line.

Thursdays results

Seeing those results have made me feel so much calmer and not so anxious about missing my ovulation days, And as things stand my Ovia app is correct which again is so comforting when your trying to do something that really is completely out of your hands what the outcome is, just knowing you are doing all you can to get the outcome you want makes the process a lot more easier.

Coil out!

On Monday the 22nd of September i had my Merina coil removed, the experience was not pleasant i was so nervous as having it put in was absolute agony! so all i was thinking was it was going to be the same process but it was a completely different procedure. The nurse reassured me that it wouldn't be painful and it may just feel a little uncomfortable and then held up a pair of forceps two times bigger than a pair of regular scissors! I was petrified to say the least, I then took a deep breath in as she removed the coil and for some strange reason i squealed like a mouse as i felt a weird uncomfortable feeling in my lower stomach and then it was over luckily i felt fine and not faint or sick as i usually feel queazy over anything to do with blood, needles or any general medical procedure.

That evening i felt a little sore and uncomfortable but nothing to major. Before i had the coil removed i had in my head i would start trying that night, but as i was a little sore and i was also on my period the excitement of getting straight to it soon went out the window. We decided to wait Until i was off my period to start the trying process.

I started the seven seas trying for a baby vitamins the next day and James is also taking trying to conceive vitamins both include folic acid and omega 3. James is also trying to give up smoking which is going really well bless him he has cut down a lot and i think when we actually are pregnant it will make him stop fully.

I feel so happy and excited and in love with James more now than i have ever before and i love how he is trying every thing he can to improve our chances it makes me so excited for the day i see him holding our baby!

Deciding day

On monday the 15th of september me and James decided that we wanted a baby and that we would get my coil removed and start trying. After sitting and taking and me crying about how worried i was what other people would think about me having another baby after already having a little boy with a previous partner something in my heart ached so much to have a mother child and i finally decided that the time was right to start the process.

The next day Tuesday the 16th of september i called my doctor to book an appointment to have my mirena coil removed and the next appointment available was the 22nd of november a little disheartened that it would be a longer process then i had thought i agreed that date was fine and booked it but as the receptionist was booking the appointment in she then said that there was appointments available sooner and i could have it removed on the 22nd of september, Relieved i book in for the 22nd of september and instantly called James to tell him that it was happening next week!

The rest of that week went so slow i just couldn't wait to have it removed to finally start trying, The whole week i was looking at prams and baby clothes and just getting myself so worked up about it finally happening. It also seemed like every friend on Facebook was announcing they were pregnant and i just couldn't wait for it to be me and James announcing that Ethan was getting a little brother or sister.